Monday, April 05, 2010
Why not post? Well I can actually think of a few reasons, such as a little munchkin who's climbing all over me and the desk while I write this. Ah well.
Last week I cut bangs. I had been thinking about it for a while, and while I was getting ready in the bathroom and feeling as if my hair was just looking drab, I snatched up my scissors and cut bangs. In my head I was planning on starting out longish and then trimming from there. I did actually already have bangs sort of, they were just grown out because they hadn't been cut since September. So they turned out to already be shortish after I cut them. Of course, I had to touch them up how I wanted them. I'm really picky about my bangs, when I do have them, an I've learned through trial and error how I like them, and I will never ever let anyone else ever cut bangs on me again. Bangs make such a difference. I cut them and then I felt fresh faced. However, just because I'm back on the bang train it doesn't mean I'm fresh faced all the time. I wish.
I can't believe how fast time is going by! Next friday, I leave for my trip to Utah with Laura for a visit with John and Slavica and Karen and the boys and Tanis's wedding. I'm excited. I worry about leaving Sloan though. That's right I'm leaving Sloan. Ann really wants to take him while I'm gone, and to be honest, I think the road trip and other aspects of the trip will be a lot easier with out him. But....he's my baby. I'm going to miss him SO much! I have mixed feelings, as you can see. I talked to Mom and she helped me feel better about it. We'll be moving away from Ann at the end of the summer and I won't have very many more opportunities like this, where someone is willing to look after my child for such a long time.
When I get home, it will be temple dedication time! I haven't written about this on here, but Kyle and I are singing in the temple dedication choir, which means we'll get to be in the temple for the dedication. Yay! I think it will be a really special experience. You know, one of those once in a lifetime experiences.
Kyle and I have been getting excited about moving. Well, Kyle's excited. I have mixed feelings. I'm excited to go and try something new and start fresh somewhere. I'm not excited to leave what I know and love and am comfortable with behind. But trying new things and stepping out of your comfort zone is how you learn, right? Kyle wasn't accepted into UBC, so that's out, which is too bad, because it would have been a small move, and I could still visit the island a lot and I'd be close to lots of family. Apparently that's not what I'm supposed to get. We do know that he was accepted to U of Calgary. I like the idea of Calgary, because I lived there before, I have some very special friends there, it doesn't get too crazy cold (well, who am I kidding- it get's cold) and it's not that far from family. The church is strong there, which will be nice for my kids, and I think Kyle wouldn't have a problem finding work (tiling) while he's in school because things are booming there. I feel good about Calgary. In fact I could almost say, I want it to be Calgary. But we're waiting to hear back from two other schools. Winnipeg, and Dalhousie, which is in Halifax. I've heard lots of great things about Nova Scotia and I don't doubt them. That's the university that Kyle really really wants to get into because they have the best architect program. But...to move all the way across the country??? It means getting rid of everything we have and starting completely over. It would mean probably hardly ever getting to come back to visit, but it would mean a great education for Kyle. And it's on the coast, and beautiful and the people are friendly. Winnipeg though? Or Winterpeg as Laura calls it. I don't know, it just scares me. It's so far away and for some reason I just picture isolation. Obviously we have to wait and see what he gets accepted to, and then decide, but I know it's going to be a difficult decision (unless Calgary is the only one he gets into) There will be a lot of praying and pondering about that decision.
Sigh. I feel like Kyle and I have done things completely backwards so far. We've been married for almost 7 years. At that point in most peoples marriages, university is either almost done or done, and you're moving on to other things like buying a house and adding to your family and stuff. I know it's materialistic of me, but I just dream of having a house big enough for us. One where everything has a place to go and is easier to keep clean and organized. That dream is sooo far down the road for us. Once Kyle is finished school, he has to apprentice for two years, and they don't make much. Its like What?! You go to school and study study study for years while being poor and living off of student loans, and then when it's finally done, you make as much or even less than you were before you started school?? That's not fair. I mean, it won't stay like that but I don't want to give it another TWO years after he finally graduates.... Ok I just needed to vent. I fully support Kyle in going to school and getting an education and learning how to do something he's really interested in. I know it will benefit us in the end, but the end feels so far away... It can be discouraging.
On the other hand, it's friday, and the twins and Owen and Christian all have birthday in a week. Woo hoo! I'm so glad the fwuffs were born. I'm glad I get to be a big sister to them. And it's date night tonight. That's always something to look forward to.
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Sarahstottle posted @ 7:37 PM