Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Well I was just gonna come on here quickly to write SOMETHING because it needs to be done. I thought to myself "why don't I just blip on and write something." Clearly I read the first sentence of Amy's blog entitled "hotfoot" one too many times, and now the term "blip" pops into my head frequently.
Life for me has been challenging. Kyle's been going back to school, and with work and his church callings, he's soooo busy. I'm not sure what to think of the whole thing because he's going back to school full time in the fall, right now he's just upgrading with two classes. It's going to get worse. Honestly, it's only been a few months, and I can't imagine 4-6 years of it!! I try to be supportive, but sometimes I just get frustrated and down right complain. Who me? complain? ha! I wish I was better at not complaining. I wish I was more positive.
I'm still finding being the mother of two challenging too. I'm never on top of things. Some days I just feel lazy and overwhelmed at all the things I should be doing and have to do. It's so rewarding to be a mom, but I have just found the transition from one child to two to be so huge. I'm still waiting to feel like I have things under control, like I'm organized. Sloan has gotten into a terrible sleep habit that I have no idea how to fix. He wakes up every one to two hours, sometimes he'll only sleep for a half hour. He nurses and then goes back to bed. My sleep is constantly interrupted until I finally give in (any time between 4-5) and bring him into bed with me, which is what I know he wants all along. He wakes up in his crib and doesn't like being alone, doesn't like that he doesn't know where I am. But I want him to have his own bed. I like having my own space when I sleep. I dont know what to do!!! I don't know what I have done wrong either. I mean, for a couple of months he was sleeping so well, waking up once, or not at all until morning. I don't know what I did to wreck him. It's so exhausting for me to go through that at night and then get up and be a mom to Adriel too during the day. If I'm lucky and I get them both to bed at the same time, I get to nap too.
Adriel has been soo cute. He's been such a joy to have around. He keeps me company in everything I do. He plays on his own so well, and loves to help Sloan. He's so sweet, he comes up to me and says "I want a hug, Mommy." I realize this time with him is so precious, he's growing and changing so fast. The other day he told me that he didn't want to turn three, he wants to stay two and a half. He continues to wow me with new vocabulary and all that he can say. It's his birthday tomorrow. The sad part is that his birth, and him as a newborn has grown so dim for me already, and it's only been three years. I think it's partly because the film we had in our camera to take pictures of him when he was born and the first month and a bit turned out to be double exposed, so I don't even have pictures. It's crazy to think that in another three years, he'll be six. I can't imagine being mother to a six year old.
What was life like before kids? I have no idea. I can't remember all that well.
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Sarahstottle posted @ 8:03 PM