Thursday, March 08, 2007
Sleep Deprived
Im sorry but I just need to rant so bear with me.
Im so tired. Adriel has been waking up so much in the night lately. Its been so frusterating. I havent had a full night's rest in SO long and Im tired of it. SO tired of it. I know that its mostly my fault because the way he falls asleep is by nursing and I want to change that, but I dont know how. I dont know where to draw the line about letting him cry, or if I should pick him up, or WHAT I should do. I dont have a clue. I just feel so overhwhelmed by it all. Kyle isnt much help either. He offers his opinion and gets upset with me if I dont agree. He said he'll get up with him on the nights where he doesnt have to work the next day. I just feel so frusterated, and he doesnt understand. Im losing my mind. Everyone who knows me knows that I need my sleep. I pray and pray and pray so desparately but it doesnt do any good. Heavenly Father isnt going to just fix this for me I have to do it myself. I just dont know how. I wish I had known before the bad habits I was drilling into Adriel. I want it to END!!!! All the things I read say that babies should be sleeping twelve hours a night by the time they're Adriel's age. He's not even sleeping that much put together. Not only is he going to bed between 9 and 10, but he's waking up ever two hours at least (sometimes it's ever hour or half hour) and then he's wide awaking and rearing to go by 5:30 in the morning. Im going to have a mental break down if this continues. I cant do it. I cant be a mom apparantly. I need help.
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Sarahstottle posted @ 11:39 AM