Grandma is out taking Adriel for a walk, so I thought I'd take the opportunity to post. She was a little bit bossy about me not putting mittens on him which annoyed me some. I tried to put them on him. They're the kind with a string attached to them and it was a fight to stuff his chubby paws in, and he cried . Then it was a struggle to get it through his jacket sleeve. He pushed and pushed and it just would not fit. He was crying, and at that point I decided it simply wasnt worth it. Then Ann showed up and told me he should wear his mittens. I explained that I tried and it was too much trouble. "Well then you just get through it" she said to me. I've taken him on many walks with out mittens before, he'll be fine. Plus he likes using his hands. Yesterday she informed me that Kyle and I live like slobs. She thinks it should be ok for her to just say things like that to me. It hurt my feelings because I try hard to keep my house clean, and yesterday was a busy day for me because I left to help Mom clean. And who feels like cleaning after spending a good four hours cleaning someone else's mess? Oh well.

I must say though, I have thought about that comment several times since she said it. I thought about it before bed. I thought about it when I woke up. I made a plan today. Im trying to get more organised in my cleaning. I made up a schedule for myself, and plan on including Kyle in it too. Im not a slob. Thats all there is to it, and I dont want to let her negative view of me affect me in negative ways.

Other than that, its been a good day. I really do enjoy being at home with Adriel. Im worried about going back to work. Im going to work in a salon that one of my friends from the cutting room opened in December. She's really nice and I know it will be fun to work with her. She's understanding of my circumstances and knows that I need a lax schedule. I plan on working hours that Kyle can watch Adriel and sometimes Ann will too. I've learned a lot in the past year about being a mom, and a homemaker. It didnt all come at once, and as you can see im still getting it together. Its a refining process for me. I started out feeling like I couldnt do anything, to slowly getting more organized about different things, like cooking, and laundry, and stuff. But there's room for improvement and Im worried about going downhill once I've started working. There will be many benefits from me going back to work too though. Like, Im still a new stylist and I have lots to learn, so it will be good for me to work with peers, and gain more clientele. And, I will be able to go on maternity leave again with our next baby, which will be nice, and we could really use the extra income. And of course the working conditions should be much better than working at the cutting room. ok ok, enough about boring things.

Im sore today. I didnt get to the gym much last week due to our visit to Vancouver, so for some reason Im sore this week. The class on Tuesday did seem particularly hard to me. My legs were shaking when I left and even just pushing the clutch down was hard. Mostly just my leg muscles hurt, but they are the worst ones to be sore! It always makes me wonder if thats what it feels like to be old....