Friday, March 24, 2006
Hard times
I've been having a hard time lately. A hard time pretending like everything in life is ok. It always feels as though nothing is going right, and just when it seems as though something might be getting better it ends up not and Im just tired of going up and down that slope. Im tired of faking.
This morning I couldnt really sleep. I wasnt having very good dreams and so I was kind of awake. Kyle got up to go to work and as he was bustling about the house, one of the things he did was use the bathroom. Our toilet has been fussy lately, sometimes the water will keep running and running. It seemed as though now was going to be one of those times. I waited and waited- it was still running. So, I knocked on the wall about three times in a row to get his attention. It was followed by a very annoyed "WHAT!?" outside the bedroom door, and then the door swung open and another accusing loud impatient "WHAT?!" Just as he finished his second mean 'what' the toilet water stopped filling up. Apparently he was annoyed because the knocking was really impatient. I was confused as to why he was talking to me like that, and said that I just thought the toilet wasnt going to stop running. He said "fine" and left. Thats it. Just left the house to go to work for the day. I hate that. It bugs me soooooo much. Am I just supposed to get on with my day all happy and chipper after that? I got up feeling upset and wishing I didnt still have two and a half hours to kill before work.
Im sorry for all the complaining. I know my life isnt anything to complain about, and I have a lot to be grateful for, I really do. Going to work will probably help me feel better- doing hair always does. I wish I wasnt so emotional all the time, and I could just let things slide.
Just some things I needed to get off my chest.
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Sarahstottle posted @ 8:28 AM