Tuesday, November 22, 2005
Dreams
Been having weird ones lately. Yesterday I had a dream that I was forced to do this "Trading Spouses" thing and it was permanent. My new husband was going to be Steve Hobbs. My whole heart was filled with dread and sadness. As I was packing up my things to go I was filled with all my favourite and happy memories of being with Kyle and I was so upset. I didnt want a different husband I just wanted him. I woke up feeling rather emotional on the subject. This morning my dream was where I just couldnt open my eyes no matter what. I hate those. This Chinese lady was giving out her clothes ( I dont even remember who I was with- maybe girls from work) and I didnt get any because she didnt like me. Once I did finally wake up it was like my eyes were out of control and whatever I looked at would move back and forth rapidly. That happens to me sometimes....
Back to work today, it feels that I hardly had a weekend for some reason. Saw Harry Potter on Saturday. Got sucked into it, not that I didnt want to see it, I just wouldnt have minded waiting. I thought I'd see it with Katie. Dad rushed out and bought us tickets. It was really good. I enjoyed it, and tried to pay no heed to any cheezy acting.
I've been thinking about what Bethany has been saying about coming out of her shell, because I feel somewhat similar to her on the topic. My shell coming out situation has been at work. I have worked there for 7 months now. Finally, Im feeling like I belong, and that I have friends at work, and that I can be myself totally and that people actually like me. It takes a long time. I mean, there were one or two people who I talked to more than usual, its not like I was totally shy or anything, but I sort of dreaded having to go to work, not because of what I do, but I wasnt comfortable there and always pushing myself outside the shell. Its not fun, is it Beth? But, I will have you know that sticking it out, and always trying has led me to a place where I really enjoy my co-workers a lot, and I wish I could see some of them more than just at work. Not saying that the same will happen for you, but you have to remember that you have a lot to offer, and other people will benifit from getting to know you better.
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Sarahstottle posted @ 8:39 AM