Friday, August 26, 2005
What do I do Right?
Well I was really going to post last night but that did not happen for me. Ann phoned us to tell us that Grandma was having seizures. Not sure I spelt it right. Anyway, she was being rushed to the hospital, and she wanted us to meet her there. So we did. I thought it would just be another one of her mini strokes. We met Ann there, and we had to wait a long time before they would let us know what was up because they had to run a lot of tests and stuff. The Dr. told Ann that Grandma was really bad, and probably wouldnt make it through the night. So we phoned some people to let them know and then we went in to see her. She was lying unconcious with an oxygen mask on. She looked so frail, and not the same. We stayed until just after12am. I felt so numb. I love grandma, but for some reason my body doesnt want to cry. It makes me feel bad, like shouldnt I hurt enough to cry? She's still alive, but they are just waiting for her to die. I feel so bad for Ann, like she needed this on top of moving and stuff.
Today work was soooooo slow. I had one blow dry. I only worked for three hours, but it felt like I was there for so long, because there was nothing to do. Just roaming around aimlessly.
Im going to go so something with Kathy. She's leaving on Sunday. I cant believe how fast this month has gone by. I havent even seen her yet, and she's been here for almost a month. I feel like such a bad friend! Its even worse that Kathy is one of two friends that im still in touch with after high school. Tamara, being the other, has been home for almost the whole summer, and I havent done anything with her. We've grown apart so much.
She's so different from me, with her single life of lots of partying and boys. I feel so unfun compared to what she's used to. I dont know why, I know Im fun.
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Sarahstottle posted @ 1:50 PM